Tags: , | Categories: Reflections, Words of Saints Posted by marygiel on 3/6/2009 7:37 AM | Comments (0)

If someone wishes to love himself he must not allow himself to be corrupted by indulging his sinful nature. If he wishes to resist the promptings of his sinful nature he must enlarge the whole horizon of his love to contemplate the loving gentleness of the humanity of the Lord. Further, if he wishes to savour the joy of brotherly love with greater perfection and delight, he must extend even to his enemies the embrace of true love.

But if he wishes to prevent this fire of divine love from growing cold because of injuries received, let him keep the eyes of his soul always fixed on the serene patience of his beloved Lord and Saviour.

From the Mirror of Love by Saint Aelred, abbot
Tags: | Categories: Reflections Posted by marygiel on 9/27/2008 1:25 PM | Comments (0)

Having a schedule is incredibly important.  Without it I go nuts.  I walk aimlessly and lose my peace.  I waste time and am a lot less productive. 

Ever since the birth of my second daughter my schedule has been all wacked.  I don’t seem to have time for anything.  I wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep (rinse and repeat).  Days flow into months and I lose the sense of time.   This is a bad place to be in.  The worse part is that I didn’t even notice this until recently.  I realized that I completely lost the sense of sacredness of time. 

Before, my day was aligned with the liturgy of the Church.  I woke up, did my Morning Prayer, read the Office of Reading and was ready for work!  Work was opus dei, it had meaning.  Even when I was bored I knew that everything I do can be offered to God.  In the evening the Evening Prayer was a great way to thank God for all the good things that happened that day.  Finally at night a short examination of conscience summed up the day.  There is great order in the prayer of the Church.  I want to re-kindle that order in my life.

I don’t know how I gradually moved away from this regular pattern.  It started with missing the morning prayer from time to time.  At first I wasn’t too troubled since I did it for valid reasons (baby screaming for food is a valid reason!).  Soon I was missing it more and more.  I tried to justify it by listening to the prayer on the bus on my iPod but it is not the same.  This break with a routine soon transferred to the evening.  Tired from a full day of work and playing with my kids I skipped the evening prayers.  I’m amazed how fast bad habits grow.  Soon I didn’t even do my Office of Reading. 

I am glad that I’m starting to realize how much these things mean to me.  Without them I become lazy and I can feel a great disturbance in myself.  It is a lot easier to sin when I don’t think about God as often as I should.  Sin multiplies sin and I really think that I’m in a need of spiritual emergency room. 

I’m starting slowly to undo the damage I have done.  My spiritual muscles are weak and I find it difficult to pray.  I think it will be a while until I am back to my old routine but I hope that I will make it.   The first step is to go and clean my soul by good confession.  I need the “grace bath” to wash away the horrible filth that has accumulated in me over the last few months. 

Tags: , | Categories: Reflections Posted by marygiel on 6/16/2008 6:37 PM | Comments (0)

How often have we made the sign of the Cross and invoked the name of the triune God without thinking about what we were doing?  In its original meaning, each time we perform this action, our baptism is renewed.  We take on our lips the words through which we were made Christians, and we consciously accept into our personal life something that was bestowed on us in baptism without any active contribution or reflection on our part.  On that occasion, water was poured over us, and the following words were spoken: "I baptize you in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit."  The Church makes a man a Christian by pronouncing the  name of the triune God.  In this way, she expressed since the very beginning what she considers the most decisive element of the Christian existence, namely, faith in the triune God.

The God of Jesus Christ by Joseph Ratzinger (Pope Benedict XVI)
Tags: , , | Categories: Reflections, Ramblings Posted by marygiel on 5/13/2008 10:29 PM | Comments (1)
ipod

Lately I have been thinking about how much technology is a part of my life.   I wake up, check my email, read the news on my iPod Touch while still in bed.  I get up and download netcasts.  Load them up to my iPod Nano.  I listen to music on the bus.  I twitter from anyplace I can.  Every day all day there is some sort of a gadget in my hand. 

This self imposed dependence on my infant cylons is starting to look more and more like an addiction.  In order to avoid further spiralling down this technological dependence I have decided to create a day free of all gadgets. 

What better day for this than every Friday.  We are already encouraged to give something up on Fridays, it being a day of penance, and giving up meat is too easy with all the yummy vegetarian dishes I enjoy.  To give up technology on the other hand is a really big deal for me.   It would mean a silent bus ride (maybe I'll read some spiritual book!)  It will mean not listening to music at work (This one will be VERY tough.  It's what's making my day go by faster and keeps me awake!) It will mean that I have to be silent with myself.  Something I have been neglecting lately. 

The plan is that from sunrise to sunset on every Friday from now on (excluding Solemnities and Feast Days) I will not use my iPods,  I will not use twitter or any other social network,  I will not use my computer at home (no choice at work) and I will not check my personal emails.  Also no radio, no TV and generally no gadgets!  (If I had a cell phone I would also include that.)

I hope that this experiment will give me more opportunity to reflect on my life and what's really important.  I hope that the silence will create a more prayful mind set and that I will end up being less dependent on my gadgets.

Tags: , , , | Categories: Reflections Posted by marygiel on 3/19/2008 7:25 PM | Comments (0)
Jesus on the Cross

Pilato, when introducing You to the people, said: Here it is the Man! He thought he knew You, but he did not know even a single bit of your Heart, whose tenderness and mercy You showed one hundred times in one hundred different ways.

Your Mother. Hanging from the Cross, You did not want to leave this world without giving her a second son who took care of her, and You told John: Here it is your mother.

The apostles. You lived day and night with them, treating them as true friends, standing their defects. You teached them with tireless patience. The mother of two of them requests You a position of privilege for her children and You replies her: "Honours have not been searched by my side, but sufferings". Also the others yearn for the first positions and You teach them: "It must be necessary to become small, to put oneself in the last place, to serve".

In the Cenacle, You put themselves on their guard: "You will be frightened and run away!". They protest. First and more, Peter, who would deny You soon three times. You forgive Peter and You tell him three times: Feed my sheeps.

Regarding the other apostles, your forgiveness shines mainly on John, chapter 21. They spend all the night on the boat. Before the sunrise, You, the Resurrected, are on the lake shore. And You become a cook, a servant, You light fire, cook and prepare roasted fish and bread for them.

The sinners. You are the shepherd who are looking for the lost sheep and is glad when finding it and he celebrates when he gives it back to the fold. You are that good father who, when the prodigal son comes back, jumps on his neck and embraces him for a long time. Scene repeated in all Gospel pages: You approach the sinners, You eat with them, You invite Yourself, if they do not dare to invite You. You seem - it is what I feel - to be more worried about the sufferings that the sin causes on sinners than the offense it can cause to God. By filling them with the hope of forgiveness, You seem to tell them: "You can' t even imagine the joy your conversion causes Me!"

Besides your heart, the practical intelligence shines on You.

You always aimed at the interior of the man. Pharisees had an emaciated face due to prolonged religious fasts and You declared: "I don' t like those faces. The hearts of these men are far from God. Impulses are born from the interior and, for that reason, the heart is used as a module to judge men. Bad thoughts went out from inside the human heart: trivialities, thefts, murders, adulteries, greeds, prides, vanities".

You hated useless words: Be your speaking: yes, yes, no, no; all that goes beyond this, comes from the evil. When you pray, don' t multiply your words.

You wanted real facts and moderation: If you fast, wash your face and put perfume on your head. When you make charity, don't let your left hand know what the right one does. To the leper when You ordered him: Do not say it to anybody. To the revived girl' s parents, You have emphatically ordered them not to go and announce the happened miracle with much ballyhoo. You used to say: I am not looking for my glory. My food is to make Father' s Will.

On the cross, before dying, you said: Everything is fulfilled. But you always make sure that things were not made in half. When the apostles suggested you: People are following us since a long time; let us send them at home so that they can eat, You replied: No, let us give them something to eat. When they finished eating bread and fish miraculously multiplied, you added: Pick the leftovers up; it is not right they go to waste.

You wanted to pay attention to the smaller details, when doing the good. When reviving Jairo' s daughter, You advised: Now, give her something to eat. People declared about You: He has done all the things well!

Albino Luciani (Pope John Paul I) from Letter to Jesus
Tags: , , , | Categories: Church, Reflections Posted by marygiel on 2/26/2008 9:46 PM | Comments (0)

I can unite in myself, in my own spiritual life, the thought of the East and the West, of the Greek and Latin Fathers, I will create in myself a reunion of the divided Church and from that unity in myself can come the exterior and visible unity of the Church. For if we want to bring together East and West we cannot do it by imposing one upon the other. We must contain both in ourselves, and transcend both in Christ.

Thomas Merton